Inside My Head

2007-11-04T06:17:00.001-08:00

wow its been awhile since i posted on here. a lot has been going on. i've been extremly busy. i'm still with phillip. i'm extremly happy about that. hes my world! i've been doing a lot of packing for the past couple of weeks. me and my dad are about to move to another town. we'll be living with my dad's gf and her daughter. we plan on moving hopefully this weekend. we'll see though. i'm not happy about living 20 minutes away from phillip but i don't have a choice. me and phillip are not ready to live together. he still lives with his parents so i wouldn't feel right living with at his house. he wants to get his own place so maybe i'll live with him soon but i don't count on it. his kids don't want me moving. they want me to stay where i live now. they'll end up liking the new house though i'm sure. they will actually be able to spend nights with me on weekends if phil wants to stay a night at my house. anyway, i'm really excited about moving. i've lived in the same place all my life so i'm ready for a move. shortly after we move i'm gonna go job hunting. i'm tired of not having a job. i want my own money and my own car. it would be nice to be able to afford to get people somethin for christmas too.

2007-04-04T05:33:00.000-07:00

ok so i didn't update the next day but hey its close enough! lol. anyway, on to what that friend did to screw up my life. ok first of all, we worked together when i had a job which was ok i liked taking her to and from work with me it kept me awake which is what i needed with the fact that i worked 3rd shift. anyway, one day we came home from work and ALL HER STUFF IS OUTSIDE OF HER APARTMENT IN TRASH BAGS! she lived with her "best friend", her "best friend's husband & 2 kids. well she called me and told me that she got kicked out. it was freezing so i picked her up and threw all her stuff in the car. anyway, my dad hated her but yet he didn't really know her. he kept saying she can't stay here. but she had no where else to go. how cruel my dad was acting was pissin me off so i told him we will only be here for a few more weeks cause we are getting a apartment together closer to work. but we never did that. b/c she screwed up the friendship. she was all the time going to see a friend of hers and SHE decided when I pick her up. i would go try to pick her up and she wouldn't be ready yet. she almost made me late for work 2 times. she TOLD a friend of hers that I COULD pick him up and take him to the new years party we were going to. he lives out of town so that pissed me off. she should have asked me before telling him that we could pick him up. the thing that pissed me off the most is that she kept on telling me not to date phil but yet i shouldn't listen my parents as much its my life i should do what i want to do. i should listen to her but not my parents????? I DON'T THINK SO! anyway, b/c of the fact that she didn't want me dating phil she sent him a message on myspace saying a bunch of bullshit to him. it pissed him off and it also pissed off allie (his neice and one of my good friends). so she sent me a nasty message and i had no clue what was going on so i told her that. she didn't believe me. but then june also got a message from this bitch. (june is allie's mom and phil's sister). after that i said enough is enough i have to get things straightened out with allie and june. i really didn't know phil so i didnt care if things got straightened out with him or not. so me, my dad, and my dad's gf all went to straighten things out. but a couple days later me and phil met in person and on good circumstances and we've been together ever since. and that bitch is now out of my life!

my BIG news

2007-04-02T06:53:00.000-07:00

again i forgot all about this site. oopsy! lol. A LOT has happened since my last entry. i didn't get that job i wrote about in my last entry. they weren't hiring at the time. then they let go of all their temporaries. which means my dad's gf lost her job. the day she would have got that news she had a car accident that totalled her car. so she got a different car which she can't use now b/c she didn't have insurance when she had that wreck so she lost her license for 90 days which just recently started. she no longer lives next door to us she moved to another town which is an hour away and got a new job there. i didn't get to work with her but i did get a job. i worked at a factory for 2 weeks but then got fired b/c i wasn't fast enough...oh well though. i don't miss it. they were all the time moving me to different places and i didnt have enough time to get used to what i was doing before i got moved again. that was back in december so i've been without a job again. i'm going to go job hunting again this week. everytime i go into a unemployment agency to see if they have anything available i tell them i will take any shift but i think thats going to change next time i go into somewhere b/c i really want a 1st shift job now b/c...................................I GOT A BOYFRIEND!!!!! yep thats the biggest news i got. i got a man now. we have been together for 2 months. he is the greatest guy. his name is phillip hes 28 and has 2 kids nicole who is 9 and johnny who is 6. i love those kids to death they are great. my dad finally got to meet the kids yesterday. i dont know what he thinks of them b/c i haven't got to talk to him yet. both of my parents like phillip and can tell that i'm really happy. my mom hasn't met phillip's kids yet but i plan on taking them to her house eventually. phillip works 1st shift at the same factory my dad works at. but we didn't meet through my dad. phillip's neice (my best friend) introduced us. actually....i was talking to her dad one night (so i thought) and phillip said this isn't mike this is phil. the next day he messaged me on myspace saying i see how u r u only talk to me when u want allie. anyway, that started a friendship and we kept flirting with each other when we talked online. i kept on thinking i shouldn't get involved with him b/c of his age and the fact that he has kids. i talked to my dad about it and he didnt want me dating him. he didn't like phil b/c he used to work with him and he didn't like him then. anyway, a "friend" of mine started a bunch of bullshit with me, allie, and phil. then a few days later i go to see allie after a couple hours of sitting outside of allie's grandma's house with allie her sister jess joined us then eventually phil joined us. i had to leave for a second and i told allie and phil i'll be back and i was expecting allie and phil to come out and hang out with me but only phil came out. a couple hours after us hanging out we kissed and we've been a couple ever since. i met his kids that next weekend. we've been moving really fast but its great. i love him! in my next blog which i'll write tomorrow i'll write about everything that "friend" done to screw up my life.

WOAH!!!!

2006-11-08T16:55:00.000-08:00

wow i totally forgot about this site. for some reason today i just thought oh i can write on blogger. then i couldn't think of my screen name on here then the site was having problems but here i am many hours later writing on here :). since the last time i wrote in here i've decided not to be friends with my "best friend" of 4 years. we just grew apart and are both changing alot mainly. it happens. i've got a new best friend now. we hang out just about every day. we haven't hung out this week at all b/c shes still in high school and is gettin ready to be in a play so she has had rehearsals until 9pm then she can't go out after 9 so we haven't hung out. i've been grounded from the car also.....which brings up somethin else I GOT MY LICENSE!!!! i got it in august. anyway, i can not use the car until i get a job.....which i'm workin on. tomorrow me and my dad's gf are going to go to this one place so i can put in a application to work at the factory she works at. the problem there is i'll be working nights. i don't wanna work nights b/c thats when i like to hang out with my friends. sometimes it sucks to grow up but its gotta happen someday. i still got weekends to hang out with them if i get the job though which is good. my dad's gf said that when she put in her application for working where she works which is where i might be working she got hired the next day. i kinda hope they don't do that to me just b/c of the fact that tomorrow is thursday which means 1 day of work for the week if i get the job. it really just doesn't make much sense. i'd prefer starting monday but oh well i guess theres nothin i can do about it if they want me to start friday. so everybody keep your fingers crossed for me b/c i need this job. not just so i can use the car again but so that i can help out my dad with some bills and pay off some of my own medical bills. anyway, i hope everyone that reads this (if anyone reads it) has been doing good. i really will try to update this more often but i'm not gonna promise that i will actually update more often lol. i'm lucky to even post on myspace haha. take care everyone!

WOW....i really need to update more often

2006-06-11T21:13:00.000-07:00

wow i'm slacking with all my blogs lately. i guess i'm just to busy to think about writing blogs lately. that and i really don't know what to write sometimes. anyway, a lot has gone on since may 19th. its now june 12th. my best friend kristal graduated high school. i went to 4 graduation parties with her. got lost going to 2 of them but we found our way to them eventually. i didn't go to the actual graduation b/c of the gym being really hot i suffered through that enough last year. on the 9th my mom and brian left for louisiana to take brian's brother home. my mom told me to take care of sanford while she was gone so i've been doing that. me and kristal have been going on walks just about every night. we only missed 3 nights 1 was due to me not feeling good then the other 2 bad weather was the cause. back in may (i forget the date) i went to carboration day at the indianapolis motor speedway with mindy and brendon. that was fun really i was suprised i had so much fun since i was with somebody i hate so much. i got really sunburned and the sunburn just did go away recently. parts of my sunburn on my shoulder are still veiwable but its not as bad as it used to be. tonight when me and my friend kristal went for our walk we seen 2 people that are friends with my mom that i really didn't want to see. the first one told me she had just called my mom's house and my brother told her my mom wasn't there. i had sanford with me and when he seen her he got really excited and tried to run to her but he was on his leash so that didn't work. i wanted to turn the other way but i couldn't get him to go the way i wanted him to go. then after that we walked back towards my mom's house and there was a cat outside and the cat and sanford actually got along. the cat liked sanford so much he followed us. the other person that is my mom's friend seen me and yelled for me and she had no idea my mom lived so close to where she was visting. when we got back to my mom's my brother was outside and said that we sure wasn't gone long and i told him we had no choice b/c a cat was following us. just as we got into the house the cat snuck into the yard so my brother scared him off. i'm having a lot of fun taking care of sanford while my mom is gone but i really miss my mom. she hasn't called me since she has been gone and i've only called her once. i have a few things to tell her so i will probably call her sometime tomorrow. earlier i was on myspace and checked out my good friend's myspace page to see when her last login was b/c i noticed recently her last login was on the 5th and i found out she was on today. i really hope i get to talk to her soon. i miss her. she has been without the internet for a month so i hope she has the internet back now. another friend i missed a lot recently is now back online and driving me nuts b/c she keeps texting my cell. i'm runnin low on minutes so i really wish she would stop texting me. anyway, i think i'm gonna wrap this up. i plan on taking a long walk tonight so i am going to need my energy.

2006-05-19T11:17:00.000-07:00

wow its been a long time since i've wrote in here. but thats nothing new. i seem to forget about this site a lot. i forget about my xanga a lot too. really i don't have much to write about though. nothing to special has been going on. i'm kinda dissappointed right now though. i thought i had big plans for the weekend but now i have nothing planned. i was going to go with my dad to the racetrack tomorrow but he may have to work all day tomorrow. so those plans might be cancelled. sunday i was going to go on a train with my mom, her bf, his brother, my brother, and my friend kristal. well things have changed. brian (my mom's bf) doesn't think he is going to have enough money to do that. i'm supposed to go to my mom 's for a cookout in a bit so at least i have something planned. hopefully it turns out brian has enough money to go on the train sunday and my dad doesn't have to work. anyway, i'm gonna wrap up this blog and call my mom to see if she is home yet. i'll try to write in here more often.

Random Survey

2006-04-25T23:00:00.000-07:00

1.Song that always makes you sad? quite a few
2. Last thing you bought? don't remember
3. Last person you argued with? my dad i think
4. Do you put Butter before putting the peanut butter on? don't matter
5. One of your stuffed animals names as a kid? i don't think i named them when i was little
6. Did you ever own at one time a Barenaked Ladies Cd? not that i recall
7. Favorite day of the week? friday
8. Favorite Sundae topping? never get them
9. Did you take Piano lessons? no
10. Most frequently song played on your MEDIA PLAYER OF CHOICE? don't know
11. T.V. show you secretly enjoy? i'm proud of all my shows none are a secret
12. Would you rather play basketball or hockey? basketball....i hate hockey
13. Date someone older or younger? don't matter really but i prefer older
14. One place you could travel right now? anywhere
15. Do you use umbrellas? not usually
16. Do you know all the words to the canadian national anthem? why would i?
17. Favorite Cheese? does cheeseball count? oh well if not thats my answer
18. The Smiths or the Cure? never heard of either one
19. Do you prefer Blondes or Brunettes (guys too)? don't matter
20. Best job you ever had? the only job i've ever had....professional lazyass
21. Did you go to your highschool prom? senior prom heck yeah
22. Perfect time to wake up at? whenever
24. Do you use your queen right away in chess? i don't even know how to play chess
25. Have you been in a car accident? only a small one
26. Closer to mom or dad...or neither? mom
27. What age is this exciting life over for you? i don't know
28. What decade during the 1900's would you have chosen to be? 90's
29. Favorite shoes you have EVER owned? lol just b/c i'm a girl doesn't mean i'm a shoe lover
30. Do you have an article of clothing you have had since you were a kid? a dress i got from france when i was a baby...my grandma got it for me
31. Were you in track and field? haha noway
32. Were you ever in a school talent show? nope
33. Have you ever written in a library book? probaby when i was really little
34. What are you allergic to? ntohin that i know of
35. Favorite fruit(s)? orange
36. Have you watched Sex and the City? lol i am now
37. Baseball hat or touqe? wtf is a touqe????
38. Do you shampoo first in the shower or soap? soap
39. Wet the toothbrush or brush dry with the toothpaste? wet
40. Pen or pencil? pencils...i make a lot of mistakes
41. Have you ever gambled at a casino? no...i'm only 20...maybe when i'm 21 :)
42. Have you thrown up on a plane? never flown on a plane...never will
43. Have you ever thrown up in a car? not that i recall
44. Have you thrown up at work? well since i'm a professional lazyass i "work" at home so yeah definetly
45. Do you scream on rollercoasters? i think i have a few times

2006-04-25T19:30:00.000-07:00

i'm so happy right now. i got a suprise earlier. my friend kristal came to see me. i was happy to see her. she showed me pics of her prom. she had a very pretty blue dress. she kept on telling me waaaaaay before prom her dress is going to be a bright green. i thought yuck when she told me that so i'm happy with her choice of color this time. she was talking about prom. she really opened up to me. i feel so special :). she told me about her crush. its the first time she has felt this way about a guy. i'm the first person she told. she couldn't stop talking about him either. she said sorry if i seem self centered but i've not told anybody about this and it feels good to finally be able to talk to somebody. i was happy to listen i mean thats what friends are for. she listens to all my problems so i'm glad i could help. i told her she needs to tell this guy how she feels but she is scared to b/c she doesn't want to scare him off. i've known that guy most of his life and i've known kristal for 4 years. that guy is to sweet to push her off like she is afraid he will do. he has a great personality too. kristal got a pic tooken with him at prom and they really make a cute couple. i would be so happy if they got together. i was best friends with that guys sister for most of our lives. once we got into junior high we drifted apart. which is fine b/c we became friends again in high school but then i ended up being kinda happy we drifted aparted for so long. she was really bitchy. i set with her at lunch b/c i knew her and the guys she sat with really well we were all friends at one time. but the more i think about it the more i realize maybe she didn't like me much once we got into high school b/c she began dating my ex. it was really weird sitting with them at lunch but this other guy my ex bf's best friend liked me and wanted me to set with them so i did. i didn't like the guy in the same way he liked me and i still don't and i think he still likes me. oh well though. anyway, kristal is going to burn a cd for me and bring it to me tomorrow. she has a half day tomorrow. so i have to make sure i listen for a knock on the door when i'm in my room i rarely hear the door but i can't miss her car though its so loud lol. anyway, i think i'm gonna wrap up this blog. i was gonna do another survey but i will wait since i wrote a actual blog.

ABC's of Me

2006-04-24T22:22:00.000-07:00

ABC's of Me!!
A - Available: If by available you mean single then yes
A - Age: 20
A - Annoyances: Oooh i got plenty

B - Best Friend: Kristal
B - Bar: lol i'm not 21 yet so i can't go into bars :(
B - Birthday: Dec. 6

C - Crush: Taking applications
C - Car: wish i had one
C - Cats: 1 named Tigger

D - Dead Pets Name: Snowball
D - Dad's Name: David
D - Dogs: 1 named Sanford

E - Energetic ball of energy? lol what???
E - Eggs: poached
E - Email: lol i'm not sayin

F - Favorite colour: pink, purple, blue
F - Food: yummy
F - Foreign Slang: lol yeah like i know foreign slang

G - Gummy Bears or Worms: neither
G - God: yes i believe....if thats what you wanna know
G - Good Times: what about them?

H - Hair Color: brown
H - Height: 5' 6"
H - Happy: most of the time

I - Ice Cream: LOVE IT!!!
I - Instrument: i love the guitar but i can't play :( i'm not gifted
I - Idol: umm i don't know

J - Jewelry: rings, necklaces, charm bracelet
J - Job: umm professional lazyass lol
J - Joke: always up to hear a good joke....if there bad jokes don't waste your time tellin them

K - Kids: None
K - Karate: mess with me and you get the karate chop lol
K - Kung fu: everybody was kung fu fighting...lol

L - Longest Car Ride: to Florida
L - Last song sung: oh man i don't know i don't even think i sang anything today :(
L - Last time you got your hair cut: like umm in december maybe

M - Milk Flavor: none i hate milk
M - Mothers Name: Tina
M - Movie Last Watched: umm i don't know

N - Number of Siblings: 1
N - Northern or Southern: southern
N - Name: Heidi

O - One wish: just one?? hmm i don't know maybe to have a bf
O - One phobia: flying
the other O is missing....i didn't take it off just so you all know

P - Parents, are they married or divorced: Divorced
P - Part of your appearence you like best: Eyes & Lips
P - Part of your personality you like best: my sarcasm

Q - Quote: "heros get remembered legends never die" & "guys come and go but friends are forever"
Q - Quick or Slow?: umm...what is this referring to?
the third Q is missing so again its not my fault.

R - Reason to smile: b/c i'm alive :):):):):)
R - Reality TV Show: American Idol
R - Right or Left: Right

S - Song Last Heard: peice of my heart
S - Season: Spring
S - Sex: i'm a female...if thats what you wanna know

T - Time you woke up: 10:30am
T - Time Now: 1:45am
T - Time for bed: whenever

U - Unknown fact about me: depends who your talking to
U - Unicorns: love them
U - Underwear at the current time: yeah

V - Vegetable you hate: hate them all
V - Vegetable you love: hate them all
V - View on politics: not my thing

W- Worst habits: cussing
W- Where are you going to travel next: not sure but i think kentucky
W- Where do you want to travel: anywhere just wanna get out of indiana

X-Rays: to many
missing 2 X's :(

Y - Year you were born: 1985
Y - Year it is now: 2006
Y - Yellow: the sun :)

Z - Zoo animal: monkey :)
Z - Zodiac: sagittarius
Z - Zone: what???

Thats The Way It Goes

2006-04-21T17:38:00.000-07:00

i was just sitting here looking at my yahoo list and realized people suck. half the people that are on my list are either so called "friends" or are never online. the people i really don't like are those so called friends. i don't want to delete them from my list but why have them on my list if i'm not going to talk to them. most of them claim they are my friend but they aren't. i'm usually the one that IMs them. i'm the one that keeps in touch with them and in school neither one of us talked to the other. some claim we are close but i bet you ask them about me they know nothing about me besides my name. heck most of them don't even know my phone numbers or where i live. they know the town i live in but thats all. one girl i have on my list was a really good friend in high school well besides the fact that she didn't come to my graduation party or graduation. but i don't know she may have been at my party. it was held at my uncle's house and it rained and the party was outside. plus i was sick graduation day so that didn't help any either b/c i had to leave my party early. i think i was just sick b/c of worrying whats to come in my life. i was taking that next big step in my life which was getting out of high school. i realize i had reason to worry then too. since i've been out of school nothing has been going on. i have no job. i've not gone to college. i basically lost touch with my best friends who i said i would never lose touch with. i'm trying to get things put back together in my life though. i have been looking into online schooling. i would like to go to college online. i don't want the whole college experience just b/c of the fact that college has never seemed to fit me. but with online college i can work at my own pace and not deal with having a roommate that i most likely wouldn't like. i've heard that online college is a lot cheaper and thats something else that bothers me. i don't have a lot of money so i can't really afford a real college so i just have to deal with online college. as long as i get some kind of college in i think i'll be just fine. lol i got totally off of subject once i started talking about graduation anyway, this girl that was a good friend in high school now says she is bi. well she is attracted to me and keeps saying to bad your straight. well she wants to hang out but i don't think i want to. she said we will have lots of sex. i'm not into girls so i don't want her. if she even put 1 move on me i'd say we are no longer friends. i don't want something like that to happen though. all my friends are important to me. i don't want to lose her friendship. in school me, her, and this other girl called ourselves the 3 bitches lol. we were also the 3 weirdos. we had a couple names for ourselves. i keep thinking about those good times and thinking how many more good times we could have if we stayed friends. i don't even IM her anymore b/c of the things she has been saying. i'm just glad she don't know where i live or my phone number. speaking of phones last night this david called me and i hung up on him. it was on my cell. well my cell is prepaid and he called 3 times. i was getting pretty pissed after the second time he called so the 3rd time i said "i don't know who you are stop calling me". that was the last i got that phone call thank goodness b/c if he called again i was gonna wake my dad up and tell him some weirdo keeps calling me. it was 1am so i'm sure my dad would have gotten pretty pissy with him too. anyway, this blog has been long enough. i got a busy weekend ahead of me so i might write another blog over this weekend or monday sometime.

Easter

2006-04-16T15:12:00.000-07:00

whats up fellow bloggers? not to much here. i just got back from having lunch with my family. we went out to eat at ponderosa. that restaurant was really busy. i hope we never go back there again. they kept running out of food and it was just a mess. i like it better when we eat at somebodys house. i got a lot of candy for easter from my dad. i got $10 from my grandparents. yesterday was a really busy day so today i'm takin it easy. yesterday around 2:30 we went to a 3 year olds bday party. her name is madison she is brian's neice jennifer's daughter. she is a cutie. i took a lot of pics. we left pretty early b/c brian was in pain b/c of the surgery he had monday. after we left we went to get some ice cream. then we stopped to see brian's friend "big mac" on the way home. big mac is his nickname i have no clue what his real name is. then we went back to my mom's house. me and brian's brother set outside while my mom, brian, and my brother all went to get a swing for the backyard. we had a cookout when they got back. brian, my mom, scotty, my brother, even sanford (my mom's dog) all had beer. my mom didn't even drink half of hers. brian asked me if i wanted some and i really have no clue why he ask me...i don't drink. everytime he drinks he ends up asking me if i want some and i never do. after the cookout we set outside and had a bomfire. it was so nice to have a fire going like that. next time we do that we are going to roast marshmellows. i thought of roasting marshmellows after it was done to late so we are doing that next time. saturday me, my dad, and scotty (brian's brother) are all going to the indianapolis speedway. that is going to be so weird for me. brian is the reason my mom and dad got divorced and my dad has never liked brian b/c of that so him offering to take scotty to the track is very weird. my dad works at the track and saturday my dad has to pick up his things for working there so he thought he would take scotty with him. the only bad part is i have to go and i don't want to. scotty wants me to go b/c he knows me and he doesn't know my dad. he would feel to uncomfortable going with somebody he doesn't know so i told him i would go too. but at least i have plans. ok well this blog has been long enough. hope everybody is having a great easter. leave me a comment if you read this i want to know how many people actually read my blogs.

Busy Busy Busy

2006-04-11T18:35:00.000-07:00

i'm so excited right now. on april 28th i will be going on vacation. yay!! its only gonna be a weekend long but at least i get out of this stupid town. where i'm going...i have no idea. i really don't care though. i know i'll get out of this stupid town. heck i'll be out of state....wooohoo. anyway, i got a lot going on right now. i've been extremly busy. my mom's bf brian is in the hospital. he gets out tomorrow. he had surgery yesterday to get his appendix taken out. so today i spent time with him and my mom and his brother at the hospital. it was boring but at least i got out of the house. i also had a lot of errands i needed to do so my mom took me to do those. hopefully things will settle down soon. things are just crazy around here lately. my brother also had to go court yesterday he thought he would be sent to jail but he is still free. i'm happy my brother is still free. saturday if brian is feeling better me, my mom, brian, and brian's brother are all going to brian's neice madison's bday party. she is turning 3 years old. last time i saw her she was like 8 months old. i plan on taking a bunch of pics. i may upload a few on here but then again i might not. sunday is easter and i'm going out to eat with my dad's side of the family then. oh and my dad and me had a bit of a mystery to solve tonight too. he got a bill from a movie rental place here in town. the problem is he never rented the things the bill was for. i looked at it am it was ps2 game rentals. the games was tony hawk underground and yu-gi-oh. the first thing i thought of when i saw yu-gi-oh was brendon. brendon loves yu-gi-oh. and he just got a ps2 not to long ago. so i think mindy rented those games. me and my dad went to that place and he got it set up to where he needs photo id when he rents something. so if that was mindy's doings she is in for a suprise next time she does something like that if that was her. ok well, i think thats all for now.

Boredom

2006-04-09T15:45:00.000-07:00

hey y'all. whats up? not much here. just totally bored. i've been pretty busy this weekend. i'm just takin it easy today. friday i had some errands to do. after i got done with those errands i went to my mom's. my mom's bf brian got back from vacation thursday morning. he brought his brother back to indiana with him. he is staying for a couple of months. on the way to do some errands me and my mom saw brian and his brother (scotty). brian introduced me to him as gee-gee. thats my nickname from brian. so of course scotty called me gee-gee. scotty probably thinks i'm nuts. i was always doin somethin funny when i was there friday. i went up there saturday too. again i was makin scotty laugh. he went to visit his other brother (lewis) yesterday too. he only spent a couple hours with him. tomorrow scotty is going with my mom to take my brother to court. i would go to but i'm gonna have to go to court soon so i'll pass on being in a court room tomorrow. i will go to my mom's at some point tomorrow though most likely. i wish i could get 2 certain channels at the moment. 2 movies came on tonight that i wanted to see. son of mask and mean girls. anyway, i told my dad that i wanted to see those movies and said he almost bought son of mask the other day. he left a little bit ago and still isn't back. i hope he decided to go buy those movies. instead of watching one of those movies i'm watching waterboy. i've seen waterboy way to many times to where its just not fun to watch anymore. later on big daddy is on and i want to watch it but i'll probably get bored with it too. anyway, i think i'm gonna wrap this up and go play games on pogo. i love that site. hope everybody is having a great weekend.

Get to Know Me.....(Survey)

2006-04-07T17:53:00.000-07:00

+ Known as: Heidi
+ Middle Name: Marie
+ Screenname: ask me and i might tell you
+ First Breath: Dec. 6, 1985
+ School: Rushville
+ Fears: Dying, Flying, Spiders
SECTION 2 HAVE YOU EVER...
+ Cheated on someone? Nope
+ Been Cheated on? Yeah
+ Fallen off the bed? Can't recall it if i did
+ Had your heart broken? Yes
+ Had a dream come true? Yes
+ Done something you regret? Yeah
+ Cheated on a test? No
SECTION 3 CURRENTLY...
+ Wearing? clothes
+ Listening to? the tv
+ Located? at home
+ Chatting with? nobody...thats why i'm doing this stupid thing
+ Watching? nothin really
+ Should REALLY be doing? hmm...nothin that i can think of
SECTION 4 DO YOU...
+ Brush your teeth? Yes
+ Like anybody? Yep
+ Have any piercings and where? No
+ Drive? Yep
+ Drink? yeah i drink water and pop a lot
+ Smoke? No
+ Drugs? No
+ Got a Celly? Yep
SECTION 5 THE LAST PERSON YOU
+ Hugged? My dad
+ Kissed? I don't know
+ IMed? Samara
+ Talked to on the phone? My grandma
+ Yelled at? Does my dog Sanford count?...I only yell when my dog makes me yell usually
SECTION 6 PERSONAL...
+ What do you want to be when you grow up? Oh heck I don't know
+ What has been the best day of your life? Well I don't know....how bout the day I was born...runner up is graduating
+ What comes first in your life? Family
+ Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? No :(
+ What do you usually think about before you go to bed? Depends on things I done during the day
+ Love your family? Most definetly
+ Love your friends? Definetly
SECTION 7 FAVORITE...
+ Movie: hmm...I don't know
+ Song: hmm...I don't know really it depends on my mood
+ Store: Hot Topic
+ Relative: I can't pick a favorite relative I love them all to much for that
+ Sport: Basketball
+ Ice Cream Flavor: Chocolate
+ Fruit: Bananas
+ Candy: Reese Pieces
+ Holiday: Chirstmas
+ Day of the Week: Friday
+ Time of day: Around Noon
+ Color: Pink, Purple, and Blue
SECTION 8 DO YOU...
+ Like to get hugs? Yes
+ Like to give hugs? Yeah
+ Like to give kisses? Yeah
+ Like to walk in the rain? Yeah
+ Prefer black or blue pens? Don't matter
+ Like to travel? Sure as long as its by car
+ Sleep on your side, tummy, or back? I fall asleep on my side but I move around a lot in my sleep
+ Think you're attractive? Not really
+ Have a goldfish? No
+ Ever have the falling dream? On occassion
+ Have stuffed animals? Yep
SECTION 9 WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT...
+ Smoking: I think its nasty but hey its your life do as you please
+ Eating Disorders: Are so stupid..why would anybody put themselves through that stuff you should accept yourself for who you are not what everybody else wants you to be
+ Summer: HOT!!!
+ Tattoos: Ouchie
+ Piercings: Ouch!
SECTION 10 THIS OR THAT...
+ Pierced nose or tongue? Neither
+ Single or taken? Single...but i'd prefer to be taken
+ MTV or BET? MTV
+ 7th Heaven or Dawson's Creek? 7th Heaven
+ Sugar or salt? Salt
+ Silver or gold? Silver
+ Chocolate or flowers? Both
+ Color or Black-and-white photos? Both
+ Hot or cold? Hot
+ Sun or moon? Sun
Left or Right? Right
+ 10 Acquaintances or one best friend? One best friend
+ Mustard or ketchup? Ketchup
+ Spring or Fall? Spring
+ Happy or sad? Happy
+ Wonder or amazement? Amazement
+ McDonald's or Burger King? McDonalds
+ Mexican or Italian food? Neither
+ Lights on or off? On
+Cup half empty or half full? Half full

Survey

2006-04-07T05:03:00.000-07:00

1) Was 2005 a good year for you? Most definetly
2) What was your favorite moment of the year? GRADUATING!!
3) What was your least favorite moment of the year? Being sick on graduation day....that sucked
4) Where were you when 2005 began? Watchin the ball drop on tv
5) Who were you with? Nobody
6) Where were you when 2005 ended? Watchin the ball drop on tv
7) Who were you with when 2005 ends? Nobody
8) Did you keep your new years resolution of 2005? I don't make them b/c I know I won't keep it
9) Do you have a new years resolution for 2006? Nope
10) Did you fall in love in 2005? I thought I was but I wasn't
11) If yes, was it reciprocal? N/A
12) If yes, do they know? Oh please the dude is a dumbass he THINKS I love him but really I can't stand him
13) Are you still in love with them? Never was and never will be in love with him
14) You regret it? Not loving him????? NOWAY!!!
15) Did you breakup with anyone in 2005? Yep
16) Did you make any new friends in 2005? Yep
17) Who are your favorite friends? I don't have favorite friends I love them all equally
18) What was your favorite month of 2005? June b/c I graduated
19) Did you travel outside of the US in 2005? No
20) How many different states did you travel to in 2005? Just 1 I went to Kentucky
21) Did you lose anybody close to you in 2005? I lost a good friend....not death wise though
22) Did you miss anybody in the past year? Yep
23) What was your favorite movie that you saw in 2005? No Idea
24) What was your favorite song from 2005? Since U Been Gone
25) What was your favorite record from 2005? Hmm.....I don't know really
26) How many concerts did you see in 2005? None
27) Did you have a favorite concert in 2005? Nope
28) Did you drink a lot of alcohol in 2005? LOL!!! More than I normally do...long story....ask me about it if u wanna know more...it was quite funny actually.
29) Did you do a lot of drugs in 2005? NO!!!!
30) How many people did you sleep with in 2005? Perv! I didn't sleep with anybody
31) Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year? Hahaha yeah
32) What was the worst lie someone told you in 2005? That they loved me and wanted to be with me forever
33) Did you treat somebody badly in 2005? Nope but I got treated badly
34) Did somebody treat you badly in 2005? YES!
35) How much money did you spend in 2005? Way to much!
36) What was your proudest moment of 2005? GRADUATING!!!!!
37) What was your most embarrassing moment of 2005? LOL! I'm not telling
38) If you could go back in time to any moment of 2005 and change something, what would it be? To many things to name
39) What are your plans for 2006? Just take it day by day and see whats in store for me.

To Be Continued...

2006-04-02T04:47:00.000-07:00

well i said i'm gonna try writing in here more often and thats what i'm doing. but this isn't like a normal blog. i actually have something exciting to write about but first i want to write about why i'm pissed. i'm pissed b/c i just found out i got mail yesterday. it wasn't in a envelope either my dad opened my mail. how rude is that? i don't open his mail. if i see it has his name on it i leave it alone. i'm so pissed he opened mail that has my name on it. i guess if i wanna be the one to open my own mail i can't have a life i must stay home to get my mail. anyway on to my busy day saturday that ended up being really scary but exciting. i got up at 7am and went shopping with my mom. we went back to her house for awhile after getting some shopping done. then we left again around 2pm. well around 3pm we were on our way back into town and we got behind this vehicle that kept swirving. we think it was a drunk driver. after watching that vehicle for a good 5 or 10 minutes my mom decided we needed to call 911 so i dialed and she talked. they wanted the plates for the vehicle but we aren't that stupid to get that close to a vehicle that came so close to hitting a on coming vehicle. we wanted to stay as far back as possible. as we entered town we saw a sheriff he was responding to the call. he timed it perfectly he was in the right spot to where he could make a u turn very easily. we told whoever was takin the call we see the sheriff so they knew they had the right vehicle. right after that sheriff got behind that vehicle another police officer came. i don't know what happened after that b/c we stopped following that vehicle. if they ended up pulling that driver over it will be in the paper so i'll write about what happened when i find out. so i guess i'll end this blog by saying...story to be continued.

Friday Wrap Up

2006-03-31T21:22:00.000-08:00

well i don't write in here often so i'm gonna try to change that. i'm sitting here bored and listening to music. when really i should be sleeping. i have to be up at 7am. me and my mom are going shopping. she wants me to get up at 6:30am i said 7am or no deal. she said ok so we have a deal i get up at 7am and go shopping with her and she will get me more minutes for my cell since i'm about out. i keep getting text messages so my minutes are running really low. so i'm happy about that. and speaking of deal or no deal....i didn't get to see it last night. its one of my favorite shows and i missed it. there was supposed to be this big suprise on there and i missed it so if anybody out there is reading this and watched it please tell me what the suprise was. we had bad weather. we had tonrado warnings out and the channel that airs deal or no deal was covering the weather. i can't believe people either. people were so pissed that the news channels were airing the weather i mean come on now. people need to know when severe weather is in their area and as news channels they have to show it. so what you missed your show i'm sure if it was your area that was being threatened with tornado warnings you would want them to show the weather too. every news channel was covering the weather and every one of them told people to stop calling and complaing about still being on the air. people are such idiots some times. i mean yeah i hate that i missed deal or no deal but i'm happier knowing that the channel it airs on was making sure they kept us informed on the weather. i can't even believe the weather was so bad. it was beautiful outside. i went to my mom's today and we set outside a lot. i played with sanford (my mom's puppy). i threw his frisbee one time and it almost went over the fence. the funny thing about that is my mom had just told me that my brother threw sanford's tennis ball over the fence the other day. it was just to windy to where the wind was carrying the frisbee away. we got him 3 new small frisbees tonight too they didn't last long. he kept chewing on them and ruined them within 10 minutes of getting them. my brother was in a pissy mood tonight too. me and my mom went to the store and we came back and sanford was in his cage he wasn't in there when we left. my brother was watching him. i guess sanford was getting on my brothers nerves. when we got back i got sanford out of his cage and he went by my brother on the way outside and was just gonna lick my brothers and my brother moved his hand like he wanted nothing to do with sanford. i got some gum and asked him if he wanted a piece and he ignored me. i didn't do a damn thing to him so i don't know why he had a attitude with me. if he is gonna be like that tomorrow when i'm at my mom's i'm gonna say forget it and tell my mom to take me home. i'll be tired anyway if i gotta get up so early so i don't wanna deal with somebody grouchy. i'll be at my mom's a lot this weekend especially since the weather is nice and i love sitting outside at her house. i love playing with sanford too so i'm loving that it is finally spring and finally feels like spring. anyway, i think thats enough for now.

The Ups and Downs of My Life

2006-03-30T11:30:00.000-08:00

wow its been awhile. i keep forgetting about my blogspot lol. oh well though my life is boring. and i got nothing but bad stuff to write about usually. yesterday was a bad day. i found out a family friend died. he had cancer. so r.i.p. earl. you will be missed. i got a lot of news about friends too. it seems i'm without 2 of my best online friends for awhile again *sigh* go figure. one of my friends has a lot of stuff going on. i can't write about that stuff b/c its all personal. another friend is moving and doesn't know when she will get the net back again. it sucks b/c the one that is moving is the one that calmed me down yesterday. i was really shooken up b/c of all the stuff i was going through. she made me laugh a lot and that helped. she is good at making me laugh. she is crazy. today is a bit better for me so far though which is good. i'm looking forward to tomorrow. my mom's bf is going on vacation YAY!!! i really don't like him he is so annoying and he drinks a lot on weekends so him and my mom fight alot on weekends. i plan on spending a lot of time with my mom while he is on vacation. i don't spend to much time at my mom's house b/c her bf gets on my nerve so i'm happy he is not going to be there for awhile. i think he is going to be gone for a week or two. he is going to lousiana to see his family. one of his brothers that lives down there will be coming back with him and staying at my mom and brian's house for a few months. i can't wait to meet him really. i've heard a lot about him. oh 1 more thing i no longer have aol which i couldn't be happier about. i have moved up to the world of high speed. i got dsl earlier this week. i should have had it last week but we hooked it up wrong so the other day i got to thinkin about things that we might have done wrong i tried just 1 thing and got it. GO ME!!! so yeah umm i think thats about it.

Mixed Emotions

2006-03-21T19:03:00.000-08:00

i'm sick, happy, and sad all at the same time. i am not feeling good at all today. i went to bed at 1:30am woke up at 7:30am b/c i was really cold. went back to bed at 9:30am then got back up at 11:30am. then i layed down again around 6pm and got up around 6:30pm b/c one of my friends IMed me even though i had my away message up. she is not having a good life right now. she found a notice on her door today that says she has 3 days to get out of her apartment. she has no where to go. she wants to live with me but my dad won't allow it and i live with him. i would love for her to move in with me. we just started talking again earlier this month b/c she just got her internet back after 5 months of not having it. she has no phone so she can't call me. she has no car and neither do i so we can't go visit each other. i don't know what i'm going to do. she is the only one i really feel like i can tell anything and everything to. she is like a big sister that i never had. i really hope that she decides to move back in with her mom. she only lives a couple streets away and like 5 blocks up. if that fails she can ask my dad if she can live here but i'm not doing it b/c i know the answer will most likely be no. if she helps with the bills though he might say yes. i don't know though i just hope she moves somewhere closer to me than she does now. i miss hangin out with her. i know my mom would take her in but she has only 1 extra room since my brother lives there and on april 1st my mom's bf is driving to louisiana to get his brother and he is going to be staying with them for a couple of months so there goes the extra room. if it wasn't for me looking forward to getting dsl tomorrow and getting rid of crappy aol i would be really depressed right now. but i'm am really excited about getting dsl. i can't take putting up with aol anymore. i've had to many problems with it lately.

So Confused

2006-03-19T11:23:00.000-08:00

first of all i want to start off this blog my saying....this site is confusing. i defnietly find writing a blog on myspace or xanga much easier. if any of you have that and want to read my blogs on either one of those sites let me know and i'll give out the link. i tried and tried and tried to post a new blog on here and after about 50 tries i finally got it. i'm new to this site so i'm very lost. not really much is going on. just trying to figure out this site. thats really the only reason i wanted to post a blog was to see if i got the hang of it or not....clearly i didn't but i'm starting to. anyway, leave me some comments if you are reading this and let me know if you want my xanga or myspace link. i love meeting new people so i'd be more than happy to give you the links. this blog is really pathetic but its not my fault i got nothing going on in my life.

My First Post

2006-03-18T10:33:00.000-08:00

well, i really don't know what to say. this is my brand new blog site. i blog often so check back regualrly to see whats happening in my life. my life really isn't all that thrilling but it does have its moments. since i don't know what exactly to write about i'll tell you a little about myself. first things first...i hate telling people what i'm like. i'm 20 years old turn 21 this december. i live with my dad. my family is important to me. my mom and me are really close. i have a cat named tigger. my parents are divorced. i have 1 half brother named kenny. my mom has a bf named brian. my brother is 29 and is currently living with my mom and her bf. i never liked dogs until i got one. i got a dog this past december he is at my mom's house his name is sanford. i'm not close to my brother but we are getting a little closer since he is living with my mom. he is not a bum he is just having some extremly bad luck so don't think he is a bum b/c he lives with his mom at the age of 29. everytime he gets good luck it gets ruined with more bad luck. i currently do not have a job. i am not your normal 20 year old. i do not go out and party with my friends. i do not drink and i do not smoke. once i turn 21 i may start drinking who knows with me. i just hate the idea of drinking since i'm 20. i want my 21st bday to be special and so therefore i will not drink until i turn 21. i will never smoke though b/c the smell of smoke makes me sick. i have friends that smoke and some family that smokes and to me thats enough. why people spend so much money on something so horrible i will never understand. my best friend is kristal. we have been friends for 4 years now. she is a senior in high school this year and she will soon be going off to college so i'm trying to spend as much time as possible with her before she goes to college. i've had a pretty hard life. at the age of 2 i had a seizure. at the age of 6 i developed eye problems first was a cataract in my right eye. i had surgery on that eye but it came back and i'm now blind in my right eye. i developed a cataract in left eye later on the doctors caught it on time. then i developed glaucoma in that same eye. again the doctors caught it on time. so i only have 1 good eye. i thank god i still have 1 good eye and my life b/c of all that i have been through. people may say i'm not very lucky b/c of all the stuff i've been through but i see it as i'm very lucky b/c i've survived all the stuff i've been through. i love meeting new people so if you read this leave me a comment and i'll get back to you. i'll gladly give you my screen name as long as you don't seem like a pervert or a psycho. i'll be the judge of how you seem so go ahead and try. i'm not very picky about my friends. my friends mean the world to me just like my family does. friends to me are pretty much family so if your my friend then you are family. ok well, i think thats enough for now. i'll write in here again soon.